coming out of the darkness of grief

(unedited, freeflow of pain and hope)

broken hearted
discarded
no ties left
just a fever dream. 

dark hole
no light
no breath
no vision in sight
family ties were all a lie.
it's hard to believe
the spoken word.
faith crumbled, 
fixation of questioning
why do we do this life?
what is the point to carry on?
I've got no one...
but I was wrong. 

in the dark
I found myself
drowning
in my pool of sorrows.
desperately
grasping,
gasping for air
praying
for someone,
something
to resuscitate me,
to make me feel 
that life was 
worth living. 

slowly the light started to shine
through the love of others. 
then somehow,
my own love
started to shine on me. 
I never thought it would be
a life worth living 
again and again.